Out in the World

“Motherhood is an endless cycle of letting go, a constant reconfiguring of rules and boundaries. You have to be flexible, quick to shift and shed. These are things I struggle with in regular life, and as a mother, even more.”

One of my recent posts, Grief and Gray Days, is now up on Mamalode! I’m so thrilled to be on their site, which is filled with thoughtful and lyrical musings about motherhood.

If you haven’t read the essay yet, please head over to check it out. I love that it’s getting a second life.

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Thank you as always!

10 thoughts on “Out in the World

  1. This post is so beautiful and raw and honest; I relate to it completely.

    It took me half of my forties to come to grips with the reality that I wouldn’t have another child. (Not COULDn’t; actually it was SHOULDn’t.)

    The truth: At 40, I’d finally found time and space for my writing, my family was thriving, we were happy and healthy and enough.

    And yet.

    I understand this gray grief. I’ve felt it myself.
    A part of me, the part that loves being a mother more than anything else, always will.


    • Julie, your comment resonates so deeply with me, I think we’re on the same wavelength here. I’m still mourning being done with babies, and I think it will take time for me to truly let it go. But like you said, I’m 40 and feel like I’m FINALLY coming into my own regarding writing, and soon will have even more time to devote to it. If I have another baby, that will not happen. Shouldn’t is how I feel, too. And yet. And yet.


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